DOVE EVOLUTION

psychosomatic

i have reason to believe that my backpain is some kinda psychosomatic reaction to volleyball practices. like i said in previous blogs. back pain was gone for the weekend tournie - which by the way - we ROCKED!! monday's practice was cancelled due to need for the team to rest. then comes wednesday. woke up in the morning. BAM - backpain reenters my life. it's not the same kind of pain. it's sharp and shoots down to my knee. was bearable during the day. but when practice time comes around i can barely move. i pop more pills. doesn't make a difference. this morning i wake up. it's better. right now i don't feel it unless i stretch.

gona see the doc tomorrow. mebbe she'll give me more pills. or mebbe she'll refer me to a PT. wooo fun! first rehab experience for me. does OHIP cover massage therapy? =P

Random Update

1. Back Pain - Pretty much gone. Still sore from long day of vball. Thanks to God and the power of healing prayer/authoritative prayer. Miracles happen - u know when u live one.

2. Volleyball Tournament - Swept all 4 games. After the frustrations and struggles with competitiveness, after a request for harder practices, after lots of prayer for my back we finally pulled through in intensity, heart, and drive for the game. feels so good to win. Love the sport.

3. Head Injury – Almost knocked myself out playing vball. It was all in slow motion, but was so fast in real life. Ran full speed to get to a pass. Desperately set it up while backing up. Stepped on a mat. Tripped over side of the pole. Fell backwards towards the score table. The back of my head was for sure goin to hit the table. Kept telling myself – chin to chest, tuck your head in, ahhhh. Somehow missed the table and rolled under. My head was all the way under. My legs flipped up and hit the edge of the table (nice purple bruise!).
:: I’m convinced God saved me – it was physically not possible for me to miss the table and roll under. I was falling downwards not sliding under. At that speed directed at the inferior posterior part of my head (where the skull is the softest) it woulda been at LEAST a major concussion ::

4. Too many papers - Still truckin along. So much reading. Lots of books (probably 20 or so) strewn all over my room = messy. Havin trouble enjoying the reading too much again. Must start writing soon. ~ 33 pages in less than 3 weeks.

5. FAT Club – Indian Buffet. Nice. Can’t wait.

6. Happily Ever After? - "happy"= mmhmm! that hasn't changed. "ever after"= not quite yet. Very excited about friends' getting the "happily ever after" label!!!!! Woo!

drug testing

back pain

i feel like an old lady. i can't even bend to spit when i'm brushing my teeth. i gotta put my hands on my knees for support everytime i go to sit. it hurts to stand up tall. it hurts to sit up straight. it hurts to walk let alone run. it hurts to play volleyball.

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volleyball tournament on saturday

second tournie of the year. must win against rival team at all cost. spandex is my friend. setter always gets second ball. i'm the setter.

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drug testing today and tomorrow

robaxacet, advil, aspirin, tylenol, motrin - you name it, i have it. the testing begins. ibuprofen or NSAID... must find the best drug to ease the pain. must be the setter. must win.

being an athlete isn't just all fun and games. when an athlete commits to playing a sport it is not jus a duty to go to practices and an obligation to play hard. it is not just trying your best and being satisfied with whatever the outcome. it is not even for the sake of the team. it is a love of the sport - be it volleyball, basketball, footbal...whatever. the athlete loves the sport. plays hard for the beauty of the sport. commits to practicing and drills to enjoy the sport. unites with teammates to add flavour to the sport.

::Playing for an audience of One::

ICQ?!?!

today, i was trying to log onto my QCARD account (Queen's student account). i kept entering in what i thought was my student number and password. i KNEW my password was right and i kept re-typing it over and over. "what da heck! - don't tell me they already deleted me from the system" i kept trying.

then i realized.
2-5-4-1-4-3-2-6 ... THAT'S NOT MY STUDENT NUMBER!!!... ICQ? WHAT?!?!

for some crazy reason - probly due to some subconscious urge to chat with ppl on-line in light of my MSN-fast - my fingers automatically entered in my ICQ #. I DON'T EVEN USE ICQ ANYMORE!! WEIRD!



~power to the green flower ~

ugh - pain ...

synopsis of today

- 9:45 am -
wake up - space for God - breakfast - daily installment of Time magazine - random --- pretty normal, i'd say


- solitude: God's personal gift to me -

- 11:30 am -
research for sys theo paper begins: book #1 - "systematic theology" by strong -- my what tiny print

- 12:54ish pm -
rubble in my belly. the search for food begins - aha! noodles and fish balls it is! (kingston styles! woo! memories)

- 1:12 pm -
oiy... so full...

- 1:15 pm -
must keep reading - book #2 ... book #3...

- 2pm ish -
emerg call to play vball... eek! still so much to read...


wow that's hot!
now imagine asian, more clothes, and no beach.
not as hot but still lots of fun

- 4pm ish -
need facebook/interaction with ppl break..."ahh... why did i take myself off msn..." sigh. must keep reading... i don't get all this holy spirit stuff... man... why is theology so complicated?

- 5:30 pm -
food break - bagel w/cheese, yogurt, milk (that's a lot of dairy products) - get ready for vball

- 6:40 pm -
*ding dong* sam's here to get me. rush down 404. pick up jordan. rush to gym.

- 7:14 pm -
OH let's start the game! ahh... bad setting by me. sigh. it's okay tho. jus church vball. no biggie. fun times anyways...

- after game -
suggestion to go to McD's... i ponder... i contemplate... i said yes. do i want food? ...not really. but those mcd's fries are so good. i haven't had fries in so long. okay, let's order some fries!

- 9:10 pm -
game #2 - ugh... my stomach... pain... ugh... those fries are like a brick on my bottom of my stomach... can't move. eeeeeew... they're jus jiggling in there... make it go away

- 9:50 pm -
game #3 - ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh... this sucks... i hate fries... mcd's is the devil... why am i in so much pain? never having fries again... fries and vball don't mix. stupid me. ahhhhhhh.... but it did feel good to serve to sam chung haha.. ACE!

-10:30ish pm -
pyo tells his poop story with actions. man. koreans are hilarious! (apparently there some funny stuff on YouTube)
happy birthday jun!

don't laugh - it was SO scary!

it's a nice day out - i decided to collect some pretty leaves for my spiritual formation class (ask me bout the leaf story sometime - life changing!) so with a shoebox in hand, i went for a walk down through the ravine/bike trails area by my house.

I'm walking... i'm looking around... i'm stooping to pick leaves.
A couple of High School guys came walking through the paths - they probably thought i was some crazy lady wandering the ravine. It was quiet and calm. I thought *hey mebbe i could go on silent retreats by myself in this place, it's so peaceful* I stooped down to get another leaf. when i straighted back up, i looked down the path.

SUDDENLY

there was this brownish black tuft of fur waddling just over the little hill TOWARDS ME! i looked again. my eyes weren't lying... there it was and it was coming closer!! I froze for a second and thought - AHHH THAT WOLVERINE IS GONA GET ME AND I'M TOO DEEP INTO THE TREES FOR ANYONE TO HELP -

(here's a tidbit on Wolverines)
The wolverine is the largest member of the family Mustelidae, though its appearance is bear-like. The wolverine is a heavily built animal, immensely strong for its size and capable of killing animals larger than itself. Known for their feistiness, members of the mustelidae family are often known as fearless.

(see why i was freaking out?)

so i took off running back down the path where i came from - all clad in my birks and vest - racing away from this beast! the leaves in the shoebox flew into my face and were left behind -

i didn't care.

i didn't wanna die.

i'm too young to die.

i looked back. it was still coming. i was like - it better not have seen me and be chasing after me - i looked back again. ...... waaaaaaaait a seeeecond ..... there's a lady walking over there .... WHAT?! A DOG!? a GERMAN SHEPHERD!?!

it was a german shepherd. now in my defense... it wasn't jus some cutesy little puppy dog figure.

it was a pretty big dog. and german shepherds can be scary sometimes too. ya no ppl use them as guard dogs, for REALS!

LOOK HOW SCARY THAT DOG IS!!!

i've gota say...

walking around the ravine by my house will no longer be a time of quiet and solitude - i'll need a walking buddy... any takers?